The taboo.

So, I have been thinking about sex lately.
Yeaps, you have seen it right, I just mentioned the word 'sex'..
Yeah-yeah..S-E-X..the taboo word..
Ya know, it's the sorta thing people think of, when you have nothing else better to do. Well, alright, not EVERYONE thinks about sex when they are free, it's just me..and my hormones lately.

Hmm, what made me think of sex lately then? Apart from my excess free time these days, blame my raging hormones.
I, for one, do not think about sex like a pervert. I just think of the word. That's all. Harmless thoughts I have, ok? Not those hamsup lou's thoughts which have full of pretty girls being fucked in different styles.
I just think about sex.

So, something did trigger me.
I shall not deny that I have not watch porn, neither would I pretend that it's a yucky thing to do so.
I think it's absolutely, perfectly, and totally normal for one person to be curious with how babies are formed. Or maybe the process of making them, that is.
Because back in Form 3, my science teacher didn't show me no tape to watch, that's why, when I first watched dirty movies, it was..wayyyyyyyy back in erm...I am not so sure..probably..in Form 1, when I was 13?
Please do not be startled at the mere age of 13..I know some people who watch, even when they are 7 years old. So, I kinda grew up, not knowing much, till the age of 13.
Pathetic, I know.

A friend of mine, lend me his collection. Ok, not to say collection, because one man's collection is never enough. I know of one guy..(that would be an understatement, a few guys.. ) who purposely have one extra harddisk to store all these kind of crap. One harddisk consist of 320gb in size.
[Shall I say more then?]

Maybe I have gotten used to dirty scenes, a.k.a porn. Everytime I watch,it would be a torture actually. As a matter of fact, I do not see the point of watching anymore, only to kill time.
I will never forget the times when my friends actually watched porn while I was studying.
So many "oohh--aaahhsss" but I was sorta immuned to it already. There was even one GIRL who was actually eating red bean dessert while watching. Okayyyyy...
Lost the meaning of porn huh?

I've always told my friends.
Girls watch porn because they want to know. Guys watch, because they want to errrkk!!!...do something.

However, what I wanna write today, has nothing to do with porn.
It's just that I went online in MIRC a few days back, connecting to DALNET,Mesra KL.
As usual, the channels I go in, would be IPOH and CHINESE. Nope, I don't go into any kinky channels such as SEX..or something that sort. I go to decent channels ok??
I know, don't be surprised. MIRC is so ICQ-ish. So a decade ago. But I was bored.
Anyway, a few people always pm me, asking me the same thing all the time.

"are you m/f?"
"asl plz?"
"you have bf?"
"are you an open-minded chatter?"
"what do you think of sex?"

and the rest is history. The same questions pop up every time I get connected that I wished I saved my answers somewhere, and just paste the same answer every time I come online. However, one 'GUY' caught my eye 2 days back. He said,
"can I see your pic?"
"do you mind if we meet up, and I touching a bit of you?"
"nevermind la, we won't have sex one, all I want is to touch and lick you xxx"
"I promise I won't make love to you, just want to have that feeling"
"if you don't want, then can you do it on me instead?"

I felt like laughing my ass off. And throughout the conversation, all I said was.."urm", "uh-huh", "NO", " Hell No!". The other guy seemed to be getting out of hand, so I closed the window and signed off from MIRC. I wasn't scared. I wasn't intimidated. I felt weird.

I kept thinking what if I was one of those innocent and naive, attention-seeking, love-deprieved young girls? Will they respond to these chatters? Will they actually meet up with them, and let them 'touching' without making love ? The guy kept assuring me that it's gonna be safe, coz he's going to bring along a condom for protection. I mean, like WTH?!! What if those naive yet stupid girls, fall for these men.? What's gonna happen to them?

Maybe I am rather conservative and traditional-like. I do not sleep around like some people whom I know of. But do not get me wrong, I have nothing against pre-marital sex. I mean, if you found someone you like, and you think that it's the right time to bring the relationship a step ahead, by all means, go ahead. Do what you wanna do. But remember, the consequences are to be taken into responsibility. It's not a total 100% protection even if u do use a dom-dom.
Some might wanna save it for their husbands only. Some might wanna have some fun. Well, we just can't decide for them.